Dear life...

To Whom it may concern:

This is going out specifically to the entity out there that is directly looking over and examining my life. The one with the clipboard and scale. The one making sure that all the good things that happen are balanced with equally bad/negative things. The one who never really lets things get TOO outa whack. Or at least always helps me find a way out of my current dilemma. 

Simply put, Thank you!! I have only just recently developed an appreciation for all that you do. For all the crap (and seriously its A LOT of crap) that you pile on me, there is always someone with a shovel digging me out. Literally the last real ice/snow in North Carolina the entire street worth of neighbors at my in-laws came out to dig me out of the ice/snow that I was stuck in.

I just want to make it known that I get it and I really do appreciate it. Who ever you are making the checks and balances you are doing a great job. 

For example you sent me back to Ohio (great), where my hubby has a good job with lots of room to move up and make more money (great), a nice house in the right area (great). Hubby took a lil over a $10,000 a year pay cut (not great), we only have one car now (not great), me trying to find a job working the few hours a week that we wouldn't need a sitter to make ends meet and failing (not great). 

For a while there the not greats were starting to push the greats into the shadows. But now I am gonna be babysitting 2 FABULOUS kids, that happen to be the same age as my 2 lil monkey's that are at home with me (great). Some people might worry about having two infants at the same time. I have faith in myself that I can handle it. And two 3 year olds... I got it no problem. I have been taking care of kids since I was a kid. My mom tried the whole childcare as birth control routine all it did was tell me I knew just how to take care of a kid and give me GOOD money as a teenager. That might explain why I had Gwen when I was only 18. 

Anyway that's besides the point. I just wanna say I understand and except all the shhhhhhtuff, that is heaped on me. Does this mean I like and enjoy it?? NOT BY ANY MEANS!! I'm still gonna get pissed and frustrated but I at least know that in the end something ok is around the corner. 

I hope all the people in my life have the same or at least similar entities in their lives. Whether its God or Karma or whatever, I'm glad I've got it.