So its been almost 2 years since I've blogged....
Let's catch up, Michael is potty trained. Ailyn is walking and talking. Connor can read an entire book on his own. Gwen is a middle schooler/pre-teen. We moved to a new house. I'm still babysitting. I still love my husband.... OK now that we are up to date on my day to day life, lets get on to more important things.
I'm kind of at a loss for words today. (And yet I'm writing this, go figure.) A very close friend's dad died yesterday. He was swimming in the ocean and a strong tide pulled him down and he couldn't get back.
I'm totally freaked out. I've known this family since I was FIVE, that's right FIVE. I was in kindergarten when I met them. No matter how far apart we are or how little we keep in touch at times, this girl has always been close to my heart. Maybe it's because we have the same name, maybe it's because we played the same game on the blacktop of the playground at our elementary school for like 3 years... I don't know what it is. But this girl is one of my favorite people in the world!! So loosing her dad has just hit me really hard. Harder than I ever expected.
I don't pray. But if I did I would be praying for her family right now. I've been trying to hold it together in public and in front of my kids, but pretty much any time I've been at the computer today, looking at facebook, I lose it. I want to be strong for my kids, because well lets face it they don't know what's going on. I want to be strong for my friend, because well how in the hell is one more person crying at her going to help??
In conclusion, I should do this more often. Blog, that is, not talk about friend's parents dying. In fact if I never had to discuss another friends lose of a parent for a long LONG time, I wouldn't mind that one bit.
I hope those of you that read this and do pray (unlike myself), will pray for my dear friend and her families loss. And I hope that somewhere out there all the people I love know that I love them.
TTFN ( Ta Ta For Now)
